Keep count on me..!!

I was waiting in the car,
in the middle of putrajaya..
listening to the music from the pendrive,
which I stick to the company car player..

then the handphone ring..
it was lina..
asking me for material name detail..

"azuri, mintak detail material yg nak guna untuk sample XYZ tu.."
"alaa.. aku cerita dalam phone, ko susah nak paham kang.. gi la tanya planner.."
"aku malas la ngan makcik tu.. dia suka bising2.."
"pegi jer la tanya.. aper2 hal kol aku balik.."

then,
as expected, incoming call from factory again..
this time, it was not lina..
it was mary, lina's superior..
her voice of anger hit my ear..

"why don't you just tell lina the material details..!!??"
"why..?"
"you did know how bad our relationship with that makcik, then you still ask us to ask her everything..!!??"
"so..?"
"what so.. c'mon laa.. just give lina the detail.."
then it's my turn to turn on the anger switch..
"i said she won't understand if i explain through phone.. so, just ask that goddamn makcik for the goddamn detail, ok..!!?? i was only not in office for one day, and the only person you can count on is me..? how if i die tomorrow..? how if i quit job tomorrow..? then the company will fall down aa..? go to hell with your bad relationship.. it's your fault if you have bad relationship.."
off the conversation..

for the first time, i didn't feel like to think other's feelings..
why..? cause they never did to me..
i know it..
they just feel want to ask me everything since it's the fast track,
wrong channel but fast track..

not to say i knew things but never want to share..
just want to keep everyone play their own role..
that's what happened to love letter these days..
less people write love letter since
peoples got sms and email as fast track..

and i thought i expressed it..

few days later,
back in office..
i walked around the production with the japanese factory manager..
looking for something which need to be improve..
then i mentioned what happened,
hoping that something will be improve..

"sir, how do you feel that when i was out station, factory staffs called me just to ask simple thing which they can get from the person beside them..?"
"woww.. is that really happened..?"
"yes sir.. i also ask them are they can't do anything if i was not around..? if i quit job tomorrow, the company will shut down and they cannot finish their work..?"

suddenly, his expression changes..
what did i said..? what did i said..?

then only i realize,
he is the one who always use me as a fast track..
he is the one who always ask me simple thing just to need to be sure..
he is the one who always think 8 times to approve my annual leave when the production is peak..

sorry sir..
i didn't meant it..

ever "terlajak cakap" everybody..?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Still love the moment..

Walaupun post aku hari tu,
kata yg aku tak berapa nak excited untuk beraya,
still, hari raya is hari raya..

untuk 1st time tahun nih,
org datang beraya rumah aku..
pasal sebelum2 nih,
sebelum raya aku dah bertolak balik ke sitiawan..
brapa tahun dah raya sitiawan dulu..
tahun nih jer raya sini dulu..
so, untuk kali pertamanyalah,
member2 aku datang beraya umah aku..
(kalo tak raya, tak datang nyer diorang..)

selama nih,
tak pernah hias rumah pun..
tahun nih tukar langsir,
tukar sarung kusyen..
beli kuih..
rasa la jugak meriah..
tahun nih tema kitorang ungu..

sori,
gambo tangkap guna vga camera jer..
camera henset aku dah dirosakkan oleh naufal..

bila dah nak abih raya nih,
baru lak terasa,
syok nyer raya..

tak sabar nak tunggu raya taun depan..
heheheh...

sori for the content..
tak berapa menarik kot..

Monday, October 05, 2009

It's all coming back to me..

rasa nyer baru jer aku wat post pasal raya..
post pasal aku bakar lalang dpn umah aku..,
post pasal hari raya malang aku..

then, it's coming again..
the hari raya..

berbelas2 tahun dulu,
menunggu hari raya semacam menunggu sesuatu yg sangat indah..
macam nak dapat benda yg tak pernah dapat..
normallah kan..

tapi kenapa sekarang,
aku dah tak rasa macam tu..?
aku poser penuh aaa...
it's everybody,
or just me,
who cannot breath the air of raya is coming again..
pocket pun pernah tulih pasal ni kot kat sini..
ada la kena mengena sket kot..

no no no...
tolak tepi seasonal treats,
tolak tepi houses decorated by more lampu lip lap instead of pelita panjut,
tolak tepi there are less bombing sounds from meriam these days,
to blame the law..?
tolak tepi people prefer to buy all the kuih muih rather than memukul telur themselves..
not pukul themselves telur aaaaa..

something is missing..
i still don't know why..
i just can't find it..
i'm looking for it..

is it because,
no more rushing at bus counter looking for balik kampung ticket..?
no more duit raya for me to collect..?
no more visiting 'aweks' houses to see how do they look in their new baju kurung..?
vice versa
no more going out dating your awek(s) during first raya, visiting collegues..?
another vice versa

who ever is still excited waiting for hari raya,
please leave a comment..
who ever no more feels the excitement just like me,
leave comments too..
i desperately want to have back the excitement..
if possible.................. huhuhuhu..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

buku muka..? muka buku..?

tak berapa lama dulu,
pocket ajak aku masuk fesbuk,
beriya2 dia ajak aku..

aku dah tak berapa gemar sgt sebenonyer,
pasal frenster pun dah ntah cemana ntah..
mmg dia ada kabo kata fesbuk lagi besh dari frenster..
ada game la, bla bla bla..

setelah beberapa lama dia insist,
aku terpaksa la jugak register..
aku ulang lagi sekali,
terpaksa..
tanpa tahu apa2 pun yg bakal berlaku..

and now it's happened..
i love this fesbuk..
bukan pasal mafia game,
bukan pasal texas hol'em poker,
tapi pasal aku leh jumpa kengkawan aku yang aku tak pernah expect nak jumpa balik..

daripada aku tadika,
sekolah rendah,
3 sekolah menengah,
local university,
oversea university,
byk yang aku dah jumpa balik..

seriusly,

i damn miss you all...!!!!! isk isk isk...

tak malu, umur 31 menangis..
hahahah.. pedulik haper aku..

especially you guys from bainun..
jan, ain, awang, mat top, ima, azura, bad, dan lain lain..
aku sungguh tak sangka leh kontek ngan korang balik..
teringin sangat nak jumpa korang..
maybe sebelum2 nih ada penah terjumpa,
tapi dah tak kenal pasal last jumpa tahun 1992,
uihhh... 17 tahun dah tu..

enihow,
thanks to pocket again..
if it's not for you to beriya2 ajak aku..
nanti aku blanja ichiban ramen lagi aaa..

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Some lesson..

end 1995,
i was a part time store keeper at a supermarket..
i've learned that sometime people trust us to manage their things,
but sometime we appear to destroy other people's things..

mid 1998,
i was a part time dish washer at a hotel..
i've learned that nobody want to eat/drink using dirty dishes,
but sometime our meal leftovers are causing other people get hard to clean it..

end 1999,
i was a part time paper boy..
i've learned that people need us to bring the daily news to them,
but sometime we spread rumors, telling lies and ask peoples to believe us..

somewhere in 2000,
i was a part time operator at a factory..
i've learned that speedy is needed to increase capacity,
but sometime we end up delaying all our work..

mid 2001,
i was a part time cleaner at a theme park..
i've learned that clean environment attract people to us,
but sometime we contribute in earth pollution..

end 2002,
i was a part time worker at a workshop..
i've learned that proper maintenance on vehicle is needed to remain safety,
but sometime we think it is a waste of money to change our car/bike light bulb..

summer 2003,
i was a part time tutor at a tuition centre..
i've learned that students depend on us to earn good lesson,
but sometime we teach poor lesson to peoples..

from 2004 until now,
i am a normal worker for my company,
despite of my position,
i've learned, learning and will learn many good lesson in life..
but sometime i feels that some doesn't.. (me too actually..)
they don't get the chance to learn,
or they don't want to,
or just, they will never learn..

when do we start to learn..?

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Another sweet memories.. (Melaka day 2 : Last day)

Ahaaa.. samung balik post lepas..
ari ke dua tu ari majlis lah..
kitorang terperap kat apartment sampai kul 11:30 pagi,
then tetiba semer jadik kelam kabut pasal kul 12:30 dah kena sampai dewan..

disebabkan memasing dah tau jalan nak ke dewan,
aku dengan bangga nya merempit sepanjang jalan nak ke dewan..
nasi baik ada trafik lait byk,
kalo dak, mesti 5 minit udah sampai.. (tipu tipu..)

dah sampai dewan,
aku kena usung bunga paha plak masa bawak pengantin masuk dewan..
nasib baik ada orang sambut kat pintu dewan..
kalo dak, harus aku lemparkan dalam longkang pasal berat menatang tu..

then apa lagi,
sibukkan diri snap2 gambo pengantin laa..

pengantin yang megah bersanding..


budak pengiring yang megah dengan bunganya..


tindakan berani aku menghampiri pelamin,
walaupun cuma bersenjatakan N73,
padahal orang lain sema pakai SLR..


bapak pengantin pempuan (bapak aku juger) sedang menepung tawar..


mak pengantin pempuan (of course mak aku juger) sedang memeluk anaknyer..


adam : kenapa pengapit pempuan tu lambat sangat bubuh nasik ayang..?
awin : alaa.. sabo la yang.. dia pun nak kedarah jugak..


ini bukan iklan ubat gigi atau iklan chewing gum yer..


adam : ayang dah kenyang nih, cemana nak habihkan nasik nih..?
awin : alaa.. ayang purak2 pegang sudu n garfu, satgi derang panggil, kita blah laa..


adam : ayang, pengapit ayang tu nak mintak kek sikit la tu..
awin: alaa.. ayang kan ada keris.. dia rapat seinci lagi, ayang tikam dia..


adam : ayang jangan la garu2 tangan ayang nih.. geli laa..
awin : ala.. taper.. kek nih lindung, orang tak nampak..


akhirnya,
aku menjelmakan diri dalam post ini..


then habis la waktu kitorang di kenduri..
sampailah masa untuk balik..
lepas salam2 lebey kurang,
betolak lah kami ke banda hilir,
nak jenjalan..
ntah cemana, abang long tersilap simpang,
maka secara tak sengaja kami terlalu depan stadium hang jebat nih..


susah gak nak sampai ke banda hilir..
atau pasal kami 1st time nak ke sana..
jalan byk one way..
benti la tanya jalan kat sorang apek tu..
dia baik ati nak offer tunjuk jalan naik moto dia,
tapi kena bagi duit kopi katanyer..
cilaker punyer apek..

akhirnya sampai jugak banda hilir dengan bantuan GPS henset lan..
ntah hapa2, dari mula takmo bukak GPS..
kedekut la brapa sen duit connect ker satelit tu..
kitorang paking sebelah balai polis..
turun jer keter, menderu abang2 beca datang mengofer beca derang..
sementara tunggu mak ngan bapak yang sesat,
derang sema naik beca,
tinggalkan aku keseorangan..
(mimi pun tak naik, tapi dia gi toilet..)


sayup2 aku nampak kapal portugis beso,
muzium kapal kata diorang..
malas nak gi sorang2, aku snap jer..
saja snap ikut celah2 pokok..


lepas derang semer naik beca,
derang ajak naik bot plak, river cruise..
nasib baik tader sewa kapal tebang, kalo dak mesti nak naik gak..
maka bersiar2 lah kami dalam bot tu selama lebih kurang 45 minit,
mengelilingi bandar melaka tu..



turun bot, gi shopping jalan2 carik makan plak..
aku tak tau nak beli aper,
tapi still kena ikut jer ke mana diorang pegi..
tolong tangkap gambo la,
ikut jer laa..

ada satu tu, aku nampak dia tulih,
"Kincir Air Kesultanan Melayu Melaka"
tapi kenapa nampak macam baru jer bang..?


tak jauh dari kincir air tu,
ada satu tapak excavation,
diorang tak habis gali lagik..
ini baru la betul nampak real..
betul2 punya tinggalan sejarah..


aku pun pasti benti tangkap gambo,
pasal aku plak yang ralit shopping..
tak beli apa pun..
beli baju kat naufal n yana jer..

petang tu, kitorang bertolak balik,
tak balik pun lagi,
singgah umah wanteh dulu kat bandar mahkota, bangi(?)..
mandi n makan lebeh kurang,
then semua wat keputusan nak balik malam tu jugak..
kalo diorang nak tdo situ pun,
aku tetap nak balik..
pasal umah wanteh ada bela kucing,
dan aku mula bersin2 dan gatal2 muka..
bertambah2 sakit la aku yg sedia sakit nih..
diorang sembang kat dalam lepas makan,
aku lepak kat luar sorang2..


sampai umah kul 4 pagi..
adoiii.. nasib baik ahad..

sekian saja trip 2 hari ke melaka..

semoga anda terhibur ngan post dan gambar yg tak berpa menarik nih..

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Sweet memories..

Alhamdulillah,
ari minggu lepas,
selesai lah sudah majlis perkahwinan awin..
dan official lah sudah si adam nih,
jadi adik ipar aku..

tak banyak aku nak citer pasal majlis tu,
pasal skang nih aku tak larat nak pikir..
tgh demam, tak tau pasal per..
berat jer badan nih..
tapi gatal jugak nak masuk kejer..
ni dah ada sikit2 rasa nak balik..
aper2 hal, nak update dulu..

ari kenduri tu,
aku tak banyak tangkap gambar,
satu pasal henset dah gelong, rosak semacam jer..
kedua pasal sibuk, ke hulu ke ilir buat kejer..
ketiga pasal diorang dah tempah jurugambo professional(?), hakim..
ni pun bakal jadik sedara mara aku jugak nih..
pasal adik dia berkapel ngan adik aku yg bongsu tuh..
ada la jodoh nyer tu nanti, insyaAllah..

hari tu, aku mmg tingin nak jumpa sorang nih,
dan aku mmg dapat jumpa dia..
amir, si pengapit adam..
asyik bersembang kat comment blog jer,
ari tu aku dapat bersembang live ngan dia..
saja nak tambah member kan, tukar2 no tepon..
mana la tau nanti, sesat larat aku kat kl tu,
buleh gak helo helo..
ko pun mesti tak sangka gak leh jumpa aku kan amir..?
siap singgah umah aku salin baju lagi pagi tu..
aku pun masih blurr, kenapa korang singgah salin baju umah aku pagi tu..
kenapa haa..?

aku tingin sangat nak tunjuk kat korang gambo majlis..
tapi since aku tak tangkap any gambo,
terpaksa la aku meminta sesiapa yang ada tangkap gambo,
pass kan gambo tu kat aku,
or yang ada blog supaya leh bubuh kat blog sendirik..

sesapa nak tgk leh gi kat blog amir ngan hakim yer..

then, secara otomatik,
senarai blogger yang aku dah jumpa,
bertambah..
hehehe..

hujung minggu nih nak gi melaka plak,
kenduri belah adam..
so, mengharap buleh jumpa lebih ramai blogger..
kepada sesapa yang ada pegi kenduri adam nanti,
kalo jumpa aku tolong kenalkan diri yer..
kalo tak, aku tak tambah dia dalam list..

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Heart pumping moment..

my younger sister will get married next week..
the nikah will be on next friday,
with the kenduri follow on the next day..
i bet the groom's heart,
pumpings like he just cut the finish line of his 100m run,
everytime his head keep thinkin about the ceremony..
doesn't it, adam..?
that is his heart pumping moment for now,
i think..
my akad nikah ceremony also make my heart pumping..
well, akad nikah ceremony did make almost all men nervous..
make me want to put this thing aside of what i want to tell you after this..

lots of moments made my heart beating like hell..
i made a list here,
5 of them..

1) my dad found out i stole money from my younger brother tabung when i was 10..

2) this moment..

3) my first air flight..

4) this moment..

5) malam pertama laaa... aiyaaaa... mau buat macam mana tak tau wooo...

so my friends,
kind to share some of your heart pumping moments..?

Friday, May 29, 2009

They don't have the auto-pilot..

Merenung jauh ke tahun 2001,
tahun ke-4 aku ada kat negara matahari terbit tu..

kohai (junior) baru masuk,
tahun tu ada 2 orang jer,
dua2 pun lelaki,
dua2 pun amik denden (shortform untuk denki denshi : E & E eng.)

sorang nama adzim (aka tobab),
sorang nama zaid (aka bert)..
ntah cemana aku jadi baik ngan diorang..
maybe pasal satu course kot..

masa tu aku dok gesyuku,
sejenis hostel yang disewa dari oyasan (tuan rumah) kepada penyewa..
tapi ntah cemana,
aku tak duduk umah aku,
aku gi merempat kat kaikan (foreign student hostel),
diorang duduk situ..

kebetulan minggu tu minggu exam..
aku repeat paper, sekali ngan adzim n zaid..
kitorang tetsuya (stay up) sampai pagi..

pukul 2 lebih kurang,
zaid macam biasa,
mula bersiap2 nak buat baito shinbun (part time anto surat kabo)..
actually dia tolong gantikan sorang senpai (senior) tu,
kamal (aka manir), pasal kamal pun byk paper kena study..
so, tinggallah aku ngan adzim study 2 orang..

lama lepas tu, zaid tak balik2..
kitorang pun pelik..
takmo study ker..?
agak2 dalam pukul 4 lebih, zaid pun balik..

kitorang terkejut..
zaid balik dalam keadaan cedera..
luka sana sini.. jari kanan luka n bengkak..
mengelabah la kitorang..

dia kata dia eksiden..
moto surat kabo yang dia bawak tu lost control..
kitorang pun kesian laa..
suruh dia rehat apa yg patut..

pastu kitorang pun tanya la,
cemana dia leh eksiden..
dia pun cerita macam nih..

"korang tau dak visor penahan angin depan moto tu..? aku tampal peta rumah yang aku nak anto surat kabo tu kat situ.. tengah aku bawak moto tu, peta sebelah kiri tu terkelepet.. so, aku tahan la ngan tangan kiri aku.. tak lama pastu, belah kanan pulak terkelepet.. so, aku pun tahan la pulak ngan tangan kanan aku.. terus masuk longkang.."

kitorang bantai gelak giler babi..
tanpa memperdulikan dah kecederaan yang di alami beliau..
alasan dia, pagi2 buta tu kepala otak dia tak berpusing..
hahahaha..

aku ingat aku sorang jer bendul..

sekian, memori aku yang lepas..

(EDITED)

to bert..
sori ler.. bukan nak memalukan ko..
sajer terkenang kisah dulu..
ko ingat dak lagi..?

Tuesday, April 14, 2009