It's all coming back to me..

rasa nyer baru jer aku wat post pasal raya..
post pasal aku bakar lalang dpn umah aku..,
post pasal hari raya malang aku..

then, it's coming again..
the hari raya..

berbelas2 tahun dulu,
menunggu hari raya semacam menunggu sesuatu yg sangat indah..
macam nak dapat benda yg tak pernah dapat..
normallah kan..

tapi kenapa sekarang,
aku dah tak rasa macam tu..?
aku poser penuh aaa...
it's everybody,
or just me,
who cannot breath the air of raya is coming again..
pocket pun pernah tulih pasal ni kot kat sini..
ada la kena mengena sket kot..

no no no...
tolak tepi seasonal treats,
tolak tepi houses decorated by more lampu lip lap instead of pelita panjut,
tolak tepi there are less bombing sounds from meriam these days,
to blame the law..?
tolak tepi people prefer to buy all the kuih muih rather than memukul telur themselves..
not pukul themselves telur aaaaa..

something is missing..
i still don't know why..
i just can't find it..
i'm looking for it..

is it because,
no more rushing at bus counter looking for balik kampung ticket..?
no more duit raya for me to collect..?
no more visiting 'aweks' houses to see how do they look in their new baju kurung..?
vice versa
no more going out dating your awek(s) during first raya, visiting collegues..?
another vice versa

who ever is still excited waiting for hari raya,
please leave a comment..
who ever no more feels the excitement just like me,
leave comments too..
i desperately want to have back the excitement..
if possible.................. huhuhuhu..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009