Mimpi ngeri ku telah tiba..

2 minggu lepas..
lepas latihan mingguan JPA,
zul bagi tau ada lawan bola,
dengan team dari relau..

aku lak 3 tahun tak main bola,
mesti muntah punya nih..
tapi pikir2 balik, bila lagi nak main..
ni la masa nak menunjukkan skill2 lama yg dah berkarat..
aper, diorang ingat "uncle" ni takleh main bola lagi ker..?

so, ptg tu kitorang kumpul kat pejabat JPA sungai bakap,
then bertolak ke relau..
training2 lebih kurang,
mula la bermain..

biasa la..
mmg mengah giler, tu baru lari kejap..
so, kontrol2 la sikit larian tu..
masa dapat bola baru la nak push lari and dribble..

once, aku dapat bola..
aku nampak mamat team lawan sorang ni meluru lari kat aku..
so, aku pun tolak bola ke tepi,
ngan harapan boleh escape dia..

tapi........
bola dapat lepas,
aku nak elak rempuhan dia tapi tak sempat..
mamat tu tak brek, dia rempuh aku..
since dia rendah,
kepala dia betul2 kat tengkuk aku masa rempuhan tu..
dia "heading" kepala aku..
aku jatuh, tak leh bernafas..
mamat tu gi sambung kejar bola..
pengadil tak tiup wisel..
permainan diteruskan masa aku terkapai2 carik oksigen..

akhirnya aku dapat bgn..
tekak aku sakit..
1st half habis, 2nd half aku tarik diri..
tak penat pun, tapi sakit tengkuk n tekak..

balik rumah nak telan air pun sakit,
nak batuk pun sakit,
nak menguap pun sakit..
mlm tu jugak gi klinik,
doktor kata takder apa2,
padahal aku perasan pangkal tengkuk aku dah bengkak..
dapat ubat jer..
takper la..

aku keep continue makan ubat,
then alhamdulillah,
tak sakit dah tengkuk aku,
tak bengkak dah tengkuk aku..

malam tadi..
aku kuar ngan abg long ngan mimi,
lepak minum..
tetiba mimi tanya takder aktiviti lain ker..
abg long ajak karaoke..
kitorang pun pegi..
dan di sini lah mimpi ngeri aku bermula..

aku dah tak boleh menyanyi..
aku ulang balik..
aku dah tak boleh menyanyi..
aku terduduk diam..
abg long pun terkesima dengar suara aku..
dia cool down kan aku, tapi tak memberi makna..

tekak aku perit,
walaupun baru menyanyi 3 baris lagu..
tak boleh nak tarik suara lansung..
lagi satu, baru nyanyi 3 baris udah takleh bernafas..
rasa macam termengah2..

mmg cilaker la mamat yg langgo tekak aku tu..
mmg dia telah mem"cacat"kan aku..
dia tak tau berapa byk "damage" yg dia dah buat kat aku..

sesapa ada tahu cemana nak kembalikan suara..?

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Aper aper jer laa..

Cerita 1
Tengahari semalam, aku makan sorang..
yana kirim jer suruh beli bihun sup..
aku pegi makan nasik ayam kat tpt slalu,
kedai nasik hainan abg mi..
bebudak kilang aku pun mmg selalu mkn sini,
cuma lately kurang, pasal jemu kot..

dah dekat nak habih makan,
abg mi dtg meja aku, join sekali..
(nak sembang la tu..)

"hang keja kilang hang lama dah ka..?"
"mmm.. 6 taun dah.."
"tu diaaa.. 6 taun dah..?"
"aaa.."
"gaji hang ada dak 8 ratus dah..?"
"haaa..!?"
"gaji hang ada dak 8 ratus lagi dak..?"
"aaaa.. saya bukan operator.."
"laaaa.. ya kaa..? abih tu, hang technician ka..? ehh.. tapi technician baju lain kan..?"
"semua org baju sama jaa.."
"abih tu hang keja apa..? gaji ada seribu dah..?"
"aaaa.. cukup makan jer la abg mi oiii.."

end of conversation..

aku tak salahkan abg mi..
dan aku tak marah pun..
malah aku lagi suka orang ingat aku kejer operator..
dan aku tak pernah cakap aku kejer apa melainkan org terdekat..
(tapi somewhere ada mention aku kejer apa.. name card etc..)

Cerita 2
Hari yg sama, lepas makan tu aku gi klinik..
amik ubat sakit tekak..

sampai klinik, bagi surat dan tunggu..
staf klinik tu all indian girls..
lebih kurang 20-an laa umur..

aku pun tgk lepak baca Times,
then one of the staff panggil aku..

"uncle, mari kejap.."

apaa..!!!???
uncle kepala hotak uncle ko..
meh sini aku seligi dagu ko tgk uncle tak uncle..
dahi aku tak berkedut lagi laa..

sudah cukup tua kah umur 32..?
iskk...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Eh Eh Eh..

eh eh..
jgn terkejut yer..
aku tak berniat nak sambung blogging secara serius lagi..

problem masih belum setel..
dan aku takmo mintak maap,
sebab aku tau,
aku tak mengecewakan sesiapa pasal tak update..
dulu mungkin ada,
tapi sekarang tak..
org dah tak mengharap dah kan..

ada org yg dok tunggu ker..?

kalo ada, mintak bersabar la..
maybe dalam sebulan ++ lagik..
sebab nyer,
aku takleh nak maintain blogging kat opis hari2..
sekarang nih, opis hanyalah tempat aku bekerja,
bukan macam dulu..
(kalo bos aku tau aku cakap macam nih, mampus aku..)

once masalah aku dah setel,
insyaAllah, aku akan kembali macam dulu..
takper,
aku sanggup start dari zero..
biar tader readers,
aku akan carik semula..

pasal bila aku dah ada benda nih.....


maka, boleh lah aku berblog sesuka hati aku,
di mana jua aku berada..
(as long as ada wifi coverage laa..)

wait for me HP Pavilion..!!!!
you'll be mine...!!!

Friday, April 09, 2010

Keep count on me..!!

I was waiting in the car,
in the middle of putrajaya..
listening to the music from the pendrive,
which I stick to the company car player..

then the handphone ring..
it was lina..
asking me for material name detail..

"azuri, mintak detail material yg nak guna untuk sample XYZ tu.."
"alaa.. aku cerita dalam phone, ko susah nak paham kang.. gi la tanya planner.."
"aku malas la ngan makcik tu.. dia suka bising2.."
"pegi jer la tanya.. aper2 hal kol aku balik.."

then,
as expected, incoming call from factory again..
this time, it was not lina..
it was mary, lina's superior..
her voice of anger hit my ear..

"why don't you just tell lina the material details..!!??"
"why..?"
"you did know how bad our relationship with that makcik, then you still ask us to ask her everything..!!??"
"so..?"
"what so.. c'mon laa.. just give lina the detail.."
then it's my turn to turn on the anger switch..
"i said she won't understand if i explain through phone.. so, just ask that goddamn makcik for the goddamn detail, ok..!!?? i was only not in office for one day, and the only person you can count on is me..? how if i die tomorrow..? how if i quit job tomorrow..? then the company will fall down aa..? go to hell with your bad relationship.. it's your fault if you have bad relationship.."
off the conversation..

for the first time, i didn't feel like to think other's feelings..
why..? cause they never did to me..
i know it..
they just feel want to ask me everything since it's the fast track,
wrong channel but fast track..

not to say i knew things but never want to share..
just want to keep everyone play their own role..
that's what happened to love letter these days..
less people write love letter since
peoples got sms and email as fast track..

and i thought i expressed it..

few days later,
back in office..
i walked around the production with the japanese factory manager..
looking for something which need to be improve..
then i mentioned what happened,
hoping that something will be improve..

"sir, how do you feel that when i was out station, factory staffs called me just to ask simple thing which they can get from the person beside them..?"
"woww.. is that really happened..?"
"yes sir.. i also ask them are they can't do anything if i was not around..? if i quit job tomorrow, the company will shut down and they cannot finish their work..?"

suddenly, his expression changes..
what did i said..? what did i said..?

then only i realize,
he is the one who always use me as a fast track..
he is the one who always ask me simple thing just to need to be sure..
he is the one who always think 8 times to approve my annual leave when the production is peak..

sorry sir..
i didn't meant it..

ever "terlajak cakap" everybody..?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Need a refreshment..

It was the third new year celebration since past 3 months..
Awal Muharram for muslims in dec 09,
January new year for peoples around the world,
and CNY for chinese this month..

me..?
i'm still here,
same work place,
same house,
same yana n naufal,
n of course, the same me..

but,
same work place with different work load..
same house with that need new decoration..
same yana n naufal who need more attention from me..
same me, but need a little bit refreshment..
(for those who understand, it's like when you want to say "勘弁してくれよ～。。")

never say bored of your life..
never say bored to your work..
never say bored to your house..
never say bored to your family..
and never say bored to yourself..
you got all above in your head,
then you may end up your neck hanging from the ceiling.. (nauzubillah..)

it just a part of the hurdles you need to jump over..
just keep remember,
you think your life sucks, others one worst..
you think your house is hot, others are homeless..
you think you work more than you've been paid, others collect bottles for dimes..
you think your family not fun enough, babies neglected everywhere now..
you think you hate yourself for being you, try be others..
you'll regret it..

so,
for those who still getting down,
even after 3 new years,
let's cheer up,
refresh yourself,
jump up high and clear those hurdles with the same you..
the more hurdles you jump, the more you'll get better..

byeee...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Business manner..

somewhat,
i wonder what is the purpose of our business people doing business..?
i mean business people not who are wearing suits,
working in skycrapers building,
discussing millions project..
but its for peniaga pasar malam, peniaga kedai runcit etc..

generally, understood by all,
berniaga is the most sumber rezeki on earth..
lot of us doing business..
and that is the purpose i think..

let me re-phrase..
what is the purpose of the way they are doing their business..?
paham ker tak paham ker, tak taaaaaau..?
pocket ingat tak pada Lee sensei,
yang mengajo tatabahasa jepun dalam dewan DKU masa AAJ dulu..?
dia yg slalu sebut macam nih kan..
sambil memusingkan kepala dia masa cakap tak taaaau tu..

cakap melayu la senang kan..
yer laa.. maksud aku segala perbuatan per percakapan diorang semasa diorang melakukan urusniaga tu..

actually macam nih..
semalam aku gi pasar malam..
yana suh aku beli sate..
and aku stop kat satu kedai sate nih,
yang mana sate dia secucuk 25 sen..
ayam pun 25 sen, daging pun 25 sen..
mmg selalu gerai nih ada kat situ..

then aku order la ayam 5 cucuk, daging 5 cucuk..
which suppose to be 10 cucuk x 25 sen = RM2.50 la kan..
bila dah siap,
dia kata kat aku RM3..

eh eh eh.. sat sat..
aku tanya balik, bukan 2 hinggit setengah ker..?
then apa yg dia reply,
"saya bubuh 12 cucuk, pasal saya tader duit kecik.."

hmmmm...
since aku adalah org melayu yg hassle free,
kasik 3 ringgit, terus blah..

bukan aku tader 50 sen dalam wallet..
cuma kalo aku kater,
"takper la dik.. bukak balik bungkus tu, saya nak 10 cucuk jugak.. saya bagi RM2.50.."
adakah dia akan menerimanya dengan senang hati,
bukak balik bungkusan tu dan amik balik 2 cucuk,
berterima kasih dengan aku kerana bersusah payah bagi dia syiling..
atau pun, dia akan menerimanya dengan muka berkeremot,
membuka bungkusan tu dengan tindak tanduk yg kasar (tak ikhlas),
kerana sales dia dah kurang 50sen,
(which means RM50 for 100 customers, right..?)
or kerana aku telah menyusahkan dia bukak balik bungkusan tu..

sorry..
bukan nak menuduh..
mungkin kebetulan dia takder syiling..
tapi bukan kah suppose dia kena tanya dulu..
explain yg dia tader syiling untuk pulangkan 50 sen aku,
memproposekan perihal dia nak menambahkan 2 cucuk lagi..

kalo dia kabo dulu kat aku,
maybe aku akan kesian kat dia pasal dia tder syiling,
silap2 RM2.50 tu pun aku bayo guna syiling..
kan leh jadi banyak syiling dia..

meniaga nih,
walaupun buleh untung banyak,
tapi kalau la dengan cheating customer buleh dapat untung lagi banyak..
well, Allah the almighty kan..
still, aku tak kata la peniaga sate got some sort of strategy untuk laku byk sate dia..
but to others peniaga who are cheating..

cemana kengkawan..?


cemana kengkawan..?

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Iskkk..

pagi nih masuk kejer,
ternampak satu mail,
komen dari last post blog aku yg berbulan dah tak posting..

uihhh...
menyirap darah siotttt...
bukan marah, tapi tercabar..
malu pun ada..

ok la ok la..
walaupun tak berapa ramai yang hoping aku menyambung blogging,
(or tader lansung yg mengharap),
aku ingat aku cuba teruskan..

no more alasan..
kalo aku kata aku akan buat,
aku buat..
korang tgk la sok..
mesti ada posting punyer..

tak caya tgk laa..


thanks to si lampu neon ni..
thanks for burning me up with your 4 words comment..

Wednesday, January 13, 2010